End of the Year Post

I don't really post a lot here (I didn't even finish my first post lolfail) but I think seeing the year off is a really big thing, so here it goes...

To sum up, 2009 has been a pretty good year. But with the positives comes the negatives, which I think I need to clear up.

Firstly, I just can't believe how much people change in the space of 12 months. I remember planning university with people who were close friends, I remember sharing the last night with these friends before I went to university. I remember us all saying how nervous we are, but how we'd 'always keep in touch.' But now it's just a statement. This isn't directed at all my friends, just the few who I feel like I'm losing. But these few are people I considered to be my best friends, people I wouldn't lose in touch with no matter what. But we're at the end of the year now, and it's all change. They ignore my text messages, they simply act like they don't want to be a part of my life and they go off and arrange things without me. Petty? I probably am being, but you know, I just don't see what I've done wrong. I don't want to make a big deal about it to them, because why should I care when they obviously don't, but inside it's really disheartening, especially to come back to Tamworth and hear nothing from them. I actually feel like Stoke is my home now, which is good but when I come back here for a few weeks it makes me miss it like crazy.

Another negative is the money side of things. Coming to uni has really drained my wallet, and it really makes me worried. I haven't got a job to go back to when I come home, and although I've got a loan it only just covers my accomodation so I'm practically living on savings. I'm at that point where I have to think about everything I buy, and have to try and budget and I seriously think I'm gonna end up broke. My parents have said they won't let me but I can just see it happening, and I don't want to end up like that. Yeah, I know it sounds like I'm complaining a bit too much and that this is nothing compared to others, but it's a concern I could do without.

But anyway, with those negatives cleared out the way, I've had loads of positives this year which has probably made it the best year of my life so far. Going to university has to be the highlight, only because of the people I've met there. Some I wonder where they've been all my life, seriously, I feel like we get on that well! And now it's Christmas time I'm really excited to go back to uni and continue the great memories with these people who will hopefully be there for most, if not all, of my life. Obviously with what's happened at home with some friends that isn't a certain, but I'm really hoping as I just feel so settled at Stoke and I'm practically loving every second of being there. I've got no regrets towards choosing it over college, or UCLan, or working- it's where I'm destined to be I think. I'm also loving my course- it's right up my street and I'm so pleased I got an offer from Staffs.

I've achieved a lot in this year, and that's probably what's made it so good. I've been to the Grand Canyon, I've done my A-Levels, completed my A-Levels, left my high school, got pretty good results, turned 18 and enjoyed partying hard, went to Step Ahead, got into university, met some new friends...ahh. It's way too much to achieve in a year, but amazingly I've done it and I'm really pleased I've made the most out of everything I can this year! Although I commented on 'losing' some of my old friends, most of them- luckily- I've kept in touch with and now our friendships have grown stronger. They're the people who I really hope stay in touch through my life.

But best of all, I think I've changed as a person. I used to be really insecure about what people thought about me, and felt I had to change for their sake. But this year I've developed an attitude where I actually don't care what others think, and I'm just gonna be myself. They can either like it or lump it :D I also feel I've got way more happier and more confident- obviously, uni has helped me feel like this and that makes me appreciate it more.

So here's me leaving 2009 behind (well, not at the minute, but tomorrow I will be xD) and looking back, it's been a pretty good year. Here's to 2010, and I can only hope the new year is as good as the previous!

Happy New Year Guys :)